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» @maquiscursed asked: a kiss between furrowed brows to try and comfort (you know from who 😔)
Every eventide fall brings the most terrifying darkness to those who don't stand entirely under light's shade or luminosity brilliance, whispers of the Abyss grow louder and all demons concealed within roused with invigorated drive to crawl from the skin of the cursed outside or scream in pain byproduct of conflicting celestial light within that, like moonlight will never be silenced by night's black mantle, neither will the abandoned seraph's.
With it comes excruciating pain that never goes away nor it ever ameliorates with continuous building of pain tolerance and, despite Dáinsleif's best effort at concealing it, fair eyebrows knit in a frown within the composure he insists to uphold until he returns to his own chambers. For even if he knows it is safe to present himself however he is to Neuvillette —either out of courtesy of reciprocating the rex's confidence to do so with him, as an expression of shared trust or both—, he loathes to show the worst of him to the Iudex. The most immediate justification for that being his sorrowful gaze at the earliest notice of pain, of concern and lament as if all of this were his own.
Albescent lashes flutter close to take deep breaths, having proved in the past effective to calm his alarmed senses back intro tolerant tranquility just for a little longer until both of them part to sleep each on their room. Amidst his exercise to calm down he feels softness of plush lips pressing a kiss betwixt his brows, prompting Twilight to open them sufficiently to note his beloved's merciful attempt to make him feel better. Stellar pupils quiver within sapphire depths, half-lidded as they are, roseate lips part to heave a sigh of newfound relief he didn't know he would feel when pain flourishes in all its inclemency. ◜Forgive me.◞
It is far from the first time Neuvillette saw this within centuries of blooming relationship the two of them had and even yet, regardless of how much he learned about his own pain spikes, hardly ever it was from his own mouth as much as it must've been from observation alone. Opposite to him, ever the honest one who never once hesitates to communicate how he feels in all his confusion and disorientation as new humane sentiments weigh on his heart, no matter how indecent it may be of him as the maximum exponent of this nation or embarrassing to him, if he ever felt that way. Perhaps... perhaps he would do better in practising the same as Leviathan does, if only to give him more concrete information of what he feels like instead of the sorrowful thought of a mind drifting within a whirlpool's eye with naught specific and thousands of painful beliefs, right or otherwise.
◜I must admit...◞ Strong chest rises and falls in a deep breath, albescent lashes open further to reveal glimmering crystalline blues as his hand reaches for the other to bring it to his face. ◜...you make it feel better.◞ It is not a white lie or a half truth to make Neuvillette feel better, no— but earnest truth to at least give him a spark of hope that not everything is futile and, however little the gestures, they contribute to his betterment. Dáinsleif nuzzles lovingly the palm of the dragon's hand before his own lips plant a soft kiss on the same spot where an intriguing mark is displayed on his gloves, he noticed.
◜The pain tends to grow bigger at night, when the demonic darkness of this world is at its more influential.◞ Hesitant as he is, his refusal to let Neuvillette in the dark despite the knowledge he already counts with is bigger. ◜Strangely enough, it would seem that my nervous system is less prone to confound your touch with a magnified version as per the corruption's distortion. Almost as if... it has grown accustomed to it.◞ There is naught Dáinsleif has to validate this nor he knows if it makes sense altogether, but there is no denial that one way or another, he feels soothed. Either because it has been long enough since he acquainted himself with a merciful, soft touch of another or perhaps because he learned to trust his eyes more, to ground himself more on the dragon's good heart despite the lingering pain.
Long fingers tighten their hold on Leviathan's hand a touch more, glacial sapphires bore into iridescent lavenders, a vulnerable gaze even he would scold himself for presenting himself in such degree of weakness if were he see himself. ◜...Sleep with me, Neuvillette.◞ What would be otherwise a hesitant question born from the belief of being too emboldened is nothing but a plea, in truth— a result of growing confidence in himself that, despite the fact that his broken mind may think otherwise, he, too, matters.
#apocryphis#◟༺✦༻◞ may your sorrow be washed away with tides deliverance; o' mighty dragon ┊neuvillette → maquiscursed.┊#◟༺✦༻◞ let luminous feathers dance under sapphire rain of justice┊dáinsleif × neuvillette.┊#◟༺✦༻◞ τόμος θ: Λυκόφως οι θεοί που πέφτουν┊advent of ragnarök.┊#◟༺✦༻◞ when reason to be shines through. ┊aria of the celestials┊#he's doing his best to be more vocal like Neuvi is 😔#also— he's asking him to sleep with him#granted that they haven't done that much in the past if ever#it's really taking the most out of him to be emboldened like this#but it's... a nice change#and it would do wonders to him to sleep together#and wake up warm and emotional because for once#it does feel better to sleep#and not so scary anymore#for the nightmares he tends to have#or the whispers of the Abyss#◟༺✦༻◞ May your sorrow be washed away with tides deliverance; o' mighty dragon ┊Neuvillette → apocryphis.┊
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I'm not sure if I told you guys about the time I dreamed that 20ish Jason Todd died yet again and Death was pissed off because "really? Again? Wtf Batman. The universe doesn't keep reviving your son just so you can see how much he lasts!" And "He has a work to do you know?!". Besides, she's fond of the bright young soul.
So, she calls her uncle to help him. And what you know? Her uncle is the God of Death (because yes, my brain is like that sometimes). They sit to talk and come up with a solution.
First, taking advantage of the effects still present of the last time-space crisis and the spirits protecting the soul, they regress the time of this universe to when Jay had just left All Caste, way before he had came back to Gotham.
Then, Death places Red Hood!Jason's memories on the soul of his younger self. Not too harsh to force his soul to crack, but not too light to let them fall. Just deep enough so he finds them when he meditates.
And by last, God of Death tells the spirits where they should guide the boy to. The perfect place for him.
Where is the best place for a soul who craves for home and safety? Of course, that's with someone who has the heart to care and accept a new loved one and the determination to protect them.
That's how Jason Todd, teenage assassin in an existential crisis, ends up waking up in the softest bed he has ever been in some foreign country. At his side there's a redhead teen sitting in a sofa, a book in his hands and other boy— this one with black hair and pajamas— lying on his lap.
The redhead— Cale, as he presents himself— is mysterious but kind hearted guy. He also knows things. So much so that if he weren't as he is, Jason would suspect. As things are, he knows he's just used to collect information. A bit like a bat, but not quite. A bat would plan how to use it against the possible enemy. Cale? Well, he doesn't even bother to hide what he realized about him. He's also ridiculously casual about it.
Who offers an assassin if they want their hidden weapons back? This guy, apparently.
Jason only knows he's not totally unconscious because at one point an old guy entered with tea and pastries for the three and Cale, the little shit, choose that moment to reassure Jason.
"Don't worry. My butler is an assassin too and we don't treat him different for it."
The old geezer almost let got the porcelain teapot to the floor. Though, points for him for recovering so fast.
"Young master? May this Ron know who you would be talking about?"
"Hm? Who do you think? Hans? The only thing he can kill is Rok Soo's humor. It's you, obviously."
"..."
Rok Soo, the sleeping beauty complex guy pretending to be asleep on Cale's lap, was sweating badly. If everyone in the room weren't already aware he was clearly pretending, someone may had thought he was ill.
Later on, he realizes there was a reason Cale had said that at that moment.
He's looking at the butler subtly terrorize the boys to behave, treating the siblings like two particularly mischievous puppies. Then he turns around and uses the same tune to advise him to be careful with his wounds. And that's when he thinks 'Oh. He doesn't see me as a menace'.
Of course he doesn't. His employer just confirmed he's aware of his identity— at least partially— and his own nature. The biggest advantage of an assassin is their secrecy. After their identity is exposed, the only reason they won't attack is if the assassin believes the risk is worthy. Telling the assassin he knows he's an assassin was his way to show Jason's own intentions: none.
Jason didn't intend to end up in that field where these teens find him. He didn't intend to be brought in their vacation house. He definitely didn't plan that the people to found him passed out would be whoever these rich guys were.
But he didn't have anything against all of this either.
Well, maybe the wound. He could make it without the blood loose and the soon-to-be scar to add to his collection.
Either way, at least he had a safe place to stay and think. Just think. Because, the memories he saw— what is he supposed to do now that he has his answer?
His da— Bruce. Bruce didn't care for him as much as Jason does for Bruce. Bruce obviously didn't love him as he thought. And certainly, Bruce was way more willingly to harm him than he believed.
And Jason— well, Jason couldn't waste a second life on a man who didn't put hin even at the same level than the Joker of all people. But maybe his expectatives were too high? He hadn't planned what to do if his life was meaningless to him.
So, Jason needed time. Time to ponder and heal. Those things are better done in a safe place.
That's what Jason has in mind when Cale offers him to stay with them.
#lcfxdc#jason todd#original cale henituse#og cale#og cale henituse#kim rok soo#ron molan#Jason Henituse AU#jason gets adopted eventually#the day jason tells them about his death is the day og cale calls ron#“hey. i have a job for you if you're interested”#“young master cale. this ron is not your butler anymore”#“who said anything about that? i mean your other profession”#choi han alver and everyone in the background: shocked pikachu face#“the joker. do you know about that bastard clown? i need him dead”#next day jason wakes up with gotham on the news and cale looks suspiciously pleased#alver pretends he knows nothing#because that ugly circus slender man sounded like a living nightmare#killing what? he doesn't know#don't you think the air feels fresher today?#choi han helps distracting batman#most suspicious distraction ever#and where was rok soo? you may ask#dumbass got injured and had jason looking over him#the spirits are like shining colorful balls of soft light#or bubbles#jason didn't know they were there until his trainment with all caste#but they tend to follow him and the other two around#rok soo is a henituse too#he was adopted when he was young and the Henituse (deruth/violan+the kids) traveled to korea
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// Their time in the metro still haunts their nightmares but at least they have each other...
#Three tends to get worse nightmares but he hides that fact from Eight- He doesn't wanna worry Eight :P#of course there have been times that have slipped but generally Three tends to deal with his nightmares alone-#where as he'll always comfort Eight anytime he has nightmares (Eight would do the same for Three but- ya know)#agent 3#agent 8#agent 24#splatoon#splatoon 2#splatoon 3#art
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you ask Sundrop Fnaf what gender they are, they answer "oh, you know! :)". Does not elaborate.
you ask Moondrop Fnaf what gender they are, they open their mouth and Hiss at you.
#ramblings#daycare attendant#This is silly goofy jokes!! ajfksk#i like to think they could both use any pronouns. i like the idea of they/he/it personally !!#but please just. projecting my own shit here. Sun giggles and just thinks its funny you'd even ask such a question!#what a silly thing gender is#Moon equally amused but does tend to humor an answer. He's the stars. They're a nightmare. He's subconscious dreams.#Silly Goofy.#sorry sorry sort of i just think their ambitions gender situation is interesting :D !! think what you want. just having fun <3#**ambiguous
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Bringing out a funny question for the asks that I know already exists in some form. What is the worst thing Balthazar does in their story?
God. What a question when he’s done So Much Shit that the one big list I have isn’t even comprehensive. I think in terms of scale of impact it might be blowing off Jamandi’s summons for the sake of personal relationship drama. That’s not a very interesting or funny answer but also HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE DIED. And it truly does come from such a lack of concern for the lives of others- he’s not particularly fond of Jamandi and feels she demands more than she returns, so in his eyes her life and the lives of every other person on that plain just don’t matter very much. In a petty way, he’d like for her to suffer crippling losses and get off his back. The faceless masses of Rostland who absorb the brunt of that are just numbers to him. And more importantly, how could Jamandi and the threat that is currently firmly a Her Problem be considered in the same breath as Tristian at all?
In terms of smaller scale things… being pretty willing to help Jaethal do Basically Anything isn’t really great when that culminates in super murdering Nortellara, and also having endorsed her holding that unlucky Nortellara look alike against her will all fucking game prior. That’s not awesome. That doesn’t speak well of someone. I know that on my romance run there was a feeble last minute ��wait maybe we shouldn’t murder your daughter for…. reasons” that she rejected (still a funny move of hers) but that’s not canon to me. The canon of my heart is very much Balthazar having been All In on killing Nortellara and being upset that Jaethal might be willing to consider backing down because he was at the time trying very hard not to think about if maybe he had an important relationship of his own to mend. Murder your daughter so I don’t have to think about the consequences of my own actions Jaethal :/
But of course there's also this so really who can say
[prompt list]
#balthazar is admittedly in a slightly weird place where on the macro scale he's often Not That Bad#because he's very concerned with public image and with keeping doors open. his advisors also have a hand in the kingdom direction#he's also generally not the Guy Who Does The Bad Thing he's just always the guy who is the reason it happened.#indirectly. often with plausible deniability. never with blood on his own hands.#and always willing to sweep in the benefits of atrocity like with the infant sacrifices#with all that said he still tends to be a Nightmare in so many interactions it's hard to really know what the worst is#baiting ivar and corrupting the pharasman priest before killing him were both pretty rough#ask game#ask me emithing#balthazar lucienne#pfkm spoilers#tagging just in case.#mountainashfae#carmen on the other hand is atrocities georg. more on that in a bit
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Gifted Drabble - NewAgeAU - Required Feelings
Hey @spotaus !! As promised! A little thingie :3 As always. No worries about it being canon canon or not hahah. the end choice is up to you ;)
So Spot and I were talking about Killer and his story and it got me thinking about something we already established would happen and happened.
Mostly Killer's interest in Ccino. Because with everything going on with Killer? That makes that so much more interesting. Especially because Killer is still figuring out who he is after everything and Ccino is pretty much a social chameleon.
You guys ready? So here are some drabbles on pretty much a normal average day for Killer since coming to the castle!
Warnings: unhealthy relationships. slight sexual harrassment (not by the guys in focus but done by a background character.)
Also this got a... bit longer than planned... woops. i schemed too hard.
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The last two months had been... strange.
Don't misunderstand. the training? brutal. But so good.
Killer never knew that it could be... fun to move and exercise.
He is so used to only running when he is running from the guards. He is so used to fighting only being adrenaline filled movements to keep the guards back so his best friend- ... so Chara could escape.
He is used to having to tug himself in tight places to hide. places that are uncomfortable.
Training with Nightmare is strange and difficult but fun.
The first time they sparred though?
Well... Killer is never afraid obviously. Chara said that being afraid is useless. But as Killer had stoof ready Nightmare had stopped. Tilted his skull at him and shaking his skull.
Killer had been terrified he had failed. Was his stance wrong? Was he not in the right defences postion? what did he do wrong? Please... He can do better.
Nightmar ehad walked over to him and looked at him calmly before saying that he wouldn't hurt him.
Killer had been frozen in place. because he knew that of course. Killer knows there is no use to training by hurting him. He learned that. Nightmare forced him to stop trianing and taking breaks at the start when he noticed that Killer was pushing himself to far. another difference from chara...
Nightmare had pretty much told him that his body didn't seem to agree with Killer. so that they would go back to Killer attacking him and Nightmare just blocking.
They haven't tried to spar yet since.
Killer sighs as he just wanders the halls. It is his thing at the moment.
When he isn't training, eating or sleeping. He likes to wander the grounds and area. explore a bit. Lay in the grass nad think about Ccino.
Sigh...
Ccino...
Killer is still unsure what to do with these... things he feels. He knows what this is of course. A stupid childish crush. Chara told him about them before. That people get stupid when they have tiny crushes. Especially when it is on someone that is way out of their league.
Killer had nobbed because it made sense. Chara would never have someone being out of their league. More that Chara was out of the league the other person was in.
So here he is... having a little crush on someone who is unobtainable.
Which Killer had known since the start so why did his stupid soul decide on this?
But... at the same time...
Killer looks outside as his mind wanders... His soul shifitng from the target to the more normal soul shape. Could you blame him? Ccino is... Ccino. He is so smart and everywhere and always so controlled and just always knows what to do and who is who...
Killer watches the forest in the distance and sighs wishfully... It would be easy.. especially now that he has a bit of gold... Tehy could get on one of the few horses together. and just ride off into the forest. They would keep going until they found a city where they could hide... Ccino and him. Just them...
He leans against the stone and smiles. Killer could show Ccino everything he knows from living in the city. How to get food where and how to dodge people. Ccino would be there for him. Help him and be nice and just... be there.
"Hello Killer."
Killer shotos upright and turns quickly. Only to come face to face with Ccino. Well not face to face as Ccino is a bit shorter but it is close.
Killer feels his body warm up slightly as he coughs to clear his throat of nothing but stupid nerves "Ccino! I didn't hear you." he grins "You sure you aren't a trained spy or guard yourself?"
Ccino tilts his skull and looks slightly amused "Very sure. I think i would notice the training for one." He looks around and looks through the window for a moment "I saw that you were just standing here and was wondering if something was wrong." and Ccino waits.
Oh gods what does he say? that he was just staring outside and thinking about the future they could ahve if they just made a break for it? that is not going to fly. oh fuck why are his hands sweaty.
Killer shrugs as he grins "Me thinking? You should know by now that i never think!" oh please just end him. what is he doing?!
Ccino frowns slightly before shaking his skull. Killer would feel bad about it but he has a tiny smile! That is something! that is something amazing!
Ccino looks back at him and frowns "Are you okay?"
Killer jsut... blinks at him... him... okay? of course he is okay? "Why wouldn't i be okay?"
Ccino keeps frowing as he just looks at him "Because your soul is a little... woobly... I was wondering if you are okay." he looks a lot stricter "If you aren't okay or feeling alright you need to tell us."
Killer however is... well he isn't NOT listening because how can he not listen to him? But Killer is sligthly panicking. of course his soul is woobly. Because his stupid soul is feeling stupid feelings about Ccino which just get worse when Ccino is here and what does he even say?! Wait! distract and redirect! Easy!
killer grins "Checking out my soul? You should take me on a date first."
WRONG DIRECTION! DIFFERENT DIRECTION! DON'T REDIRECT INTO THAT DIRECTION!
Ccino doesn't even blink at his very poor attempt at a flirt "Killer. I am being serious. Are you feeling okay? If you are sick you need to take time to rest and heal before anything else."
Killer snorts nad shrugs "Euh. I would be fine anyway. The king would probably hate me skipping training for something as stupid as me not feeling okay."
Ccino frowns at him "Killer... I know for sure that our king would much prefer you taking your time to heal and feel okay over you hurting yourself or getting sicker by pushing yourself too far."
Killer snorts as he mutters wiht a shrug "You jsut think that because you have priveledges..." which Killer immediantly regrets. it sounded like an insult or rude or whatever it is called.
Ccino shakes his skull as he mutters "No it is..." he sighs as he rubs his skull for a moment before focussing on him again. "Killer. I can assure you. I swear and promise. our king would not react poorly to hearing you are not feeling well." and he gives him this tiny tiny smile.
Killer feels weird and he has so many impulses and thoughts he doens't even know what to do at the moment. his body is unsure and killer jsut stays put as he looks to the side wiht a shrug.
Ccino watches him for a moment but doesn't push further. Instead he just nods as if Killer made any type of sense as he looks down the hall "Were you going to get dinner? it is about time for it."
Killer takes the out wiht both hands as he answers "I was going into that direction." and if he wasn't before he is now!
Ccino nods "Then we can walk together." he starts to turn and looks at him.
Killer feels his hadns get sweaty again. the impulse to hold the other. to just wrap his arms around the other and never let go. The need to pull him back and away. The other need to just sit with him and stare.
He can not be near him now. Ccino is offlimits and Killer is a mess.
Killer finds his voice "You know... now that i think about it... dinner? yeah... i dunno. Not exactly hungry... maybe you have apoint about me not feeling well. I am going back to my room and rest."
Ccino frowns at him but once again nods "okay. If you still feel ill tomorrow just tell one of the maids okay? Take it easy and try to get some sleep." and ccino walks away. towards the area to get food.
Killer rushes back to his room and falls on the bed. He groans long and loud. Why is he like this? why is this so hard and weird and strange?
Why does he never want it to stop.
Even so Killer jsut lays in the bed. feeling his soul slowly calm down from the racing pace it had been going. slowly it calms a calm pace and Killer thinks he slept for a bit.
Killer wakes up of course. He is hungry.
Ugh. this is what he gets for lying and skipping dinner.
Killer groans as he sits upright... he hopes there is some stuff still in the kitchen for him to raid and-
something in here smells delicious?!
Killer looks around and finds a plate of food on his nightstand. It is mashed potatoes with some greenery in it... hotchpotch? with something that looks like a large meatball and there is a tiny note.
Killer takes the note and reads it. It is ccino. telling him to take it easy and that he left him a meal for when he feels hungry.
Killer takes the plate. and while the food isn't hot anymore it is still warm. He takes a careful bite. but instead of chewing or swallowing he just waits and feels.
He enver realy had meals with intent before. Killer was never in a position to get those. And most restaurants places he took food from hadn't had a chef that cared enough to put intent in.
THe cooks here put a lot of intent in the food. Of nourishment mostly. the want that they feel good.
Killer didn't feel it right away so he doesn't think the normal cook made it. especially because it was chicken planned for dinner today.
He feels it.
It is weak and so light but it is there. Care. soft care from a magic that killer hadn't felt fully before. But the same care he could see shinign through Ccino's eye lights.
It feels like the magic... holds him. but not like guards grabbed him before. but softer and gentle and if he can break.
Killer only finishes his bite onces he absorbed every last bit the intent. He looks down adn ignores the fact that the goop from his sockets are dripping. that the goop is way more watery than normal.
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There are a lot of cats out in the castle.
Killer at first hadn't understood why.
Killer knew the church for nim used the animals as sacrifices. That he had...
Killer however also knew that Nightmare is very against sacrifices. If he learned anything in his four months here it was that. Nightmare hates everything that relates him back to his mother.
The news that nim and ngihtamre had been related... well... Killer will admit he had been looking back on those old fantasies or running away wiht a certain someone much more seriously.
But nightmare hated the old ways. He looked at them with disgust each time they were brought up and tried to make sure no situation happened where they woudl be needed. Killer is unsure what nightmare will do once something needs to happen that require those very things.
Maybe Nightmare will just keep refusing to do it. He seems to be very set on doing that.
Either way.
Cats.
So many of them.
Killer right now stands in a hallway. staring at a very sassy little grey with brown spots creature. The cat looks completely unimpressed with Killer.
Killer... hadn't tried to pet the cats yet. He had been... unsure...
Killer knows what he did. What he has done to these very creatures. The pain he caused their brothers and sisters before. Killer had the feelign the cats knew too. That they knew he was a terrible person who hurt those like them before.
Killer still really wants to go that direciton though... He has training with nightmare and nightmare and him had finally moved unto to sparing and Killer found it fun. He wanted to get all the time to spar that he could.
Killer stares down at the tiny creature "come on bud... I really need to go that direction."
The little grey and brown spotted cat looks unimpressed at him before rolling unto his back. showing that forbidden tummy.
Killer may never have petted a cat but he knows that is a trap. Killer shakes his skull "Can't do buddy... I know you will attack me."
The cat just does a slow blink at Killer. The picture of perfect innocence as he lays there. His eyes seeming to say 'why won't you pet me? aren't i cute? and don't i look soft?'
Killer slowly crouches down near the cat "I mean it bud. I need to go the direction you are blocking. Can you please move?" his hands slowly nears the cat. his hand is shaking lightly.
The cat makes that little mrp noise as he nuzzles the floor. wiggling in place.
Killer ligthly touches the cats side-
and the cat snaps to grab his hand with his little claws and bites it.
Killer yelps "ow! Hey! No fair!" the cat already let go and stands at the end of the hall. Looking very proud of himself before throtting off.
Killer glares as he jumps up "hey no wait!" he knows the library is there and Killer doesn't want the cat to start clawing stuf in there. the library is nightmare's pride and joy! he rushes after the cat "Hey! come back here!"
It takes amoment but he finds the cat and grins "There you are Bite!"
and amused voice "Bite?"
Killer turns around and Ccino is right by his side. Looking intrigued as he looks between Killer and the cat he had finally managed the corner.
Killer blinks and searches for the words "Yeah... Bite.. because he bites."
Ccino hums as he looks at the cat. He easily walks by Killer's side and killer tries not to shiver when their sides brush adn touch. Ccino crouches down and lets the cat sniff his hand for a moment. Ccino titls his skull as Bite just starts headbutting his hand and arm.
Waht a traitor.
Ccino chuckles as he picks Bite up and Bite purrs loudly and Killer swears the cat is staring at him smuggly
Ccino hums as he pets the cats "Sorry she bit you. cats need to learn not to see hands as toys. I think she thought you were trying to play with her."
Killer blinks "Her?"
Ccino nods "Yeah. Bite is a girl."
Oh gods please don't tell Killer that he officially named one of the cats and the name is BITE.
Killer rubs his hand "You sure it was just playing?"
Ccino nods "should be... did she do damage?" he frowns slightly.
Killer blinks and checks himself. No. no damage. huh. he shakes his skull "Nah. she didn't do damage... aside from emotional damage that is."
Ccino snorts and nods "Tehy are good at that. Well. I will take this little trouble maker in that case. You good luck at your training. Take the path behind the armour stand. It will take you right to the triaing area and you wn't be ridiculous late." and ccino opens his arms to let Bite jump out.
Killer shakes his skull "wait i euh... how come all the cats like you so much? are they yours?" he does remember the direction for later.
Ccino tilts his skull "They aren't mine. tehy are all strays... i guess they just like this place and see it as safe." a bit of a guilty smile "I do feed them however... which isn't helping the cat situation."
Killer snorts "must take a lot of money to pay for." maybe he can help a bit? share the costs?
Ccino shakes his skull wiht a smile "doesn't cost me anything. Ngihtmare just makes sure there are supplies for them in the castle." at the shocked look ccino smiles a bit softer "He knows I like them. So our king makes sure that they cna stay." he pets the feline by his feet "And what can i say? they are amazing pest control."
Killer laughs and nods "I can imagine. So how did you get them all to like you cat whisperer?"
Ccino looks amused but must be in a good mood as he decides to share his wisdom "Getting a cat to like you is easy. You just need to respect their boundaries and learn their language."
Killer fucking knew it! Killer grins "You can talk to them?"
Ccino blinks and looks a bit sheepish "oh no i can't. I meant... their body language. Cats communicate a lot with body language. Learn to read that a bit and you will know what a cat is annoyed or wants to be left alone. Then you respect their limits. if you are calm a cat is more likely to like you. and if you let a cat leave when it wants to they are more likely to return to you."
Killer gives a slow nod. huh..
Ccino nods "Etiher way. you got training that started like five minutes ago. Use the pathway i pointed out. See you around Killer." and he turns and leaves.
He turns the corner and Killer rushes after him to say thank you but- he is gone... Ccino must have used one of those pathways that the servants all use.
Bite is still by his side. she is looking at him with the most unimpressed look that Killer has ever seen on a cat.
Killer huffs and crosses his arms "What? it isn't like you would know how to trat a crush."
Bite clearly disagrees as she licks her paw before rubbing herself against his leg before throtting off. Looking confident and happy.
Killer sighs before jumping. shit his training! He rushes towards the armour stands and finds the servants path easily enough as he rushes towards the training room.
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Killer is not sure if he even wants to be here.
Here, being, this stupid council get together thing.
Killer isn't even sure what it was. Just that there are a bunch of council members and old nobels. Something soemthing about it still being from Nim's time or something and Nightmare needing to deal with it.
Nightmare had asked if Killer had wanted to be there. Get a better feel for what normal guard duty was. So he could better understand why his duty was so much different.
Killer figured that it would be helpful. He had been here for six months now. a full half year. and while his training to be a Knight was progressing nicely he didn't know why it was special.
Nightmare had asked if he wanted to rotate with the guard for a while. to better understand their positions and jobs so he could see why his was different?
Killer had agreed.
and it was so different. His private room for one. but also the special training. the fact tha tnightmare would speka to him one on one and ask for his opinions and thoughts.
Being a knight... being a knigh was kinda like beign a personal guard and advisor in one go. It was a honour. and Killer jsut kinda.. stumbled into it.
Killer hadn't even been seriously concidering the job for the first three months he had been here! But then he got curious and figured he could stay and watcha bit longer. just a tiny bit couldn't hurt.
ccino walks by his row of guards and each guard quickly grabs some of the tiny snacks he offers. Ccino stops by a guard that doesn't grab one and gives thema look. the guard notices and eats the snack before ccinoe moves on. Killer grins at him as he grabs his snack and he gets agrin in return before ccino rushes of to take care of the other guards.
it also helps that ccino is here.
Killer is still unsure how ccino is just head of the house and not nightmare's main advisor and right hand. ccino is smart and clearly the most loyal of everyone in the kingdom. How could nightmare only let ccino be head of the house? sure it is a big role but killer doens't think it holds enough respect... but maybe that is just him.
Killer watches the nobel man and woman do their thing. he watches as advisors lean clsoe together to mutter and scheme. mmh. killer will have to point that out later to nightmare. make sure he noticed and knows there may be something brewing with those.
Killer still doens't get why Nightmare doesn't just fire them all. He is the king. he can do that. but someting about not wanting people to revolt or something. taking it step by step to clean it all out.
Euh. Not his job. at least not until he is a full knight.
For now he watches for trouble for Nightmare but everything seems fine... So his sight wanders to Ccino as he weaves through the crowds wiht a practise ease.
Killer is always enchanted by Ccino just. moving with ease and confidence. The way he knows how to move and never bump into anyone. How he gracefully dodges any hands or people stepping back.
Killer still watches of course as Ccino makes his way around the crowd. And he is reasonable near Killer, and Nightmare for that matter as Killer is positioned closest to him, when it happens.
Some nobel person Killer doesn't know who he is or why he is important and he doens't care. Reaches out and grabs Ccino right by the spine and rubs it.
Killer feels his hand for a fist as he moves his hand towards where his knife is stashed.
Ccino manages to twist free, which cna't be comfortable with how he was grabbed and manages to make space "Excuse. I didn't realise i was that close."
Killer has his knife in hand.
The nobel man smirks "If it isn't the pretty skeleton! I must say it is refreshing to still see you here! pretty as always." he looks him up and down and Killer gets ready. There isn't a straight line but Killer could be there within seconds.
"One of the better things of Nim! giving you your job for us all to have something pretty to stare at." the man laughs.
Ccino has a iron hold on his own face as he remains calm "The old king's name should not be spoken. As our own king rules now."
the man smirks before frowning "Though you have let yourself go! Already much fatter than before. such a shame and waste of a pretty face. Though I am sure it would still be fun to have a night together. Especially if we invite some of my business partners-"
And Ngihtmare is there. He grabs the nobel man and throws him across the hall into the wall. Killer can hear bones break and crack form his place.
People gasp and move towards his side but Killer isn't paying attention to that. He seems to be the only one who watches their king and ccino.
Nightmare looks beyond furious. His tentacles are all posed and sharp. ready to strike. He lowers himself and it reminds Killer of the big cats. How they get ready to strike.
A hand on Nightmare's shoulder.
Nightmare turns with a glare but meets ccino's unflinching face. Ccino just shakes his skull at Nightmare.
Ngihtmare breathes heavily and killer cna feel the rage in the air. Is he the only one who notices? because he is already getting sensitive to their king?
Nightmare glances back to the man on the ground and ccino shake shis skull agian. He straightens his spine, killer can see the pitch of pain on his face and nightmare clearly does to as his rage just increases. Ccino shoots him another look. He striaghtens his spine and stands still before looking pointedly atnightmare.
Ngihtmare pants but stands up striaght.
Ccino nods and rolls hsi shoudlers before relaxing them both. Killer can see his hand is still slightly shaking but he forms a fist and forces it still.
Nightmare breaths and his shoulders relax and wiht it his tentacles unsharpen.
Ccino raises a hand and waves it by his face. when his face has gone by his face turned from his frown to a neutral face.
Nightmare takes another deep breath but his face calms down.
Ccino nods and takes a few steps back. his arms and hands hidden behind his back but killer can see them shake slightly.
Ngihtmare walks over ot the nobels "As you should know by now. I do not take kindly to those who dare to threaten those who fall under my employment. I employ them in in trade for their service I keep them safe and comfortable. Yet you dare to enter my home, on my invitation, and threaten those around us? Those who work hard to ensure you have a pleasant evening? you will be removed and stripped of your title. Leave." he waves his hand and returns to his throne but on the way he stops by Killer.
Killer stands ready.
Nightmare mutters "Get Ccino to the healer. You are to make sure he gets there safely and gets to his room safely where he can rest." he eyes the knife that killer still has in his hand and looks appreciative of it. before schooling is face again and nodding. Not once mentioning that he saw the weapon which is very much not part of the normal guard equipment.
Killer nods and bows "Of course my king." and he rushes to ccino's side with a cheerful grin. hiding his own rage under easy company.
He will make sure ccino is fine. Then... when killer earned his right as knight and when he is allowed solo trips... he will make a special trip to the nobel.
after all. if he doesn't have hands he can never make a grab to anyone ever again.
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Killer sighs as he pets the cat in his lap. eight months. eight months since his life changed twice over. first wiht chara leaving him behind. abandoning him. and then him taking the deal with nightmare.
So muhc had changed. He had changed.
Killer pets the cat sleeping peacefully in his lap. It is still so strange. That he is still here. He hadn't... he never wanted... it hadn't been the plan to stay.
But after a while. Leaving seemed even worse of an idea.
Killer just dind't like the idea of leaving anymore.
Just until he uncovers the secrets.
Just until he satisfies his curiosity.
Just until he is over his crush.
All three misions failed.
But instead of feeling like it is time to cut his losses and move on. Killer just continues to want to stay here.
Killer sighs as he leans agianst the wall.
very soft steps and Killer grins as he looks over. Ccino turns to corner and tilts his skull at him "Well don't you look cozy." he takes a glance and smiles "I see Bite finally stopped attacking your hand every second."
Killer snorts "nah." he raises his bites covered hand "She just got tired." and he goes back to petting her.
Ccino nods as he walks over "How is your training doing?"
Killer nods "good." and that is the problem. because it is going well. Nightmare told him as much. Killer would soon have his first mission and he is worried.
What if he can't do it?
what if he can do it but doens't want to?
what is he can do it. does it. but dind't want to do it?
is the loyalty he feels... for nightmare? or for the idea that he has to be loyal.
He isn't sure.
Ccino nods "that is good." he tilts his skull at him "excited to be a full knight?"
Killer is feeling ballsy today. reckless even. Killer grins at ccino "What if i don't want to be a knight?"
Ccino doens't flinch and instead tilts his skull "I mean... you would ahve spend a long time training for soemthing you didn't want... so i figured you would have realised earlier."
Killer shrugs "waht if i did? but ust wanted more training?"
Ccino looks a thim and shrugs "I don't believe that. I think you want to be a knight."
Killer glares "And what makes you think that?"
Ccino smiles atiny bit "emotions and intent. If you hadn't wanted it. you wouldn't have tried so hard and made progress this quickly."
Killer blinks and looks forwards "What if i just believed it is what i wanted?"
Ccino shrugs "They yuo have to make a carreer switch."
Killer snorts "Oh yeah. Nightmare is going to be fine with that." he rolls his eyes.
Ccino lokos amused "Yes out king." he stresses the title "Will be fine wiht that."
Killer shoots him a look "oh come on! I knew there is more going on over him just being your king and you just being a loyal servant."
Ccino looks forwards wiht a tiny smile "I have no idea what you are talking about. Only those most trusted by the king would know personal affairs of the king." and he grins.
Killer looks amused "Okay. what if i just become knight to learn all the secrets. and then when i am saticfied i will just leave." he knows he is looking at him smugly.
Ccino tilts his skull amused "Relaly now? When you figure out all the secrets?"
Killer nods "indeed."
Ccino laughs "good luck with that." and he starts walking away.
Killer tilts his skull at him "What is that suposed to mean?!"
Ccino stops and glances backwards "You are a smart cookie. you will figure it out." and he turns around the corner.
At this point Killer knows better than to try and follow ccino. He will be gone before Killer can even get to the corner. probbaly on the other side of the castle already.
Killer keeps forgetting to ask him how he does it.
....
euh.
He will eventually ask him... Maybe...
after all...
He will only leave once he learns all the secrets...
So maybe keeping one or two in tact is a great idea...
You know...
Just because he is curious. And no other reason at all.
#utmv#NewAgeAU#killer sans#nightmare sans#ccino sans#FUN FACT! The scheming started with only the bit wiht the council.#that is where i started with my scheme#but then i figured that... it would be intersting to see how killer reacts to having a crush.#when he is barely a person.#and it helps that ccino is untouchable and unobtainable.#it means ccino is just safe for killer.#ccino is a constant and there and it HELPS#Killer can look safely at ccino and see what he likes nad doesn't like.#It is very muhc. killer dealing with a lot of stuff.#as his crush evolves along with him#the crush never leaves it just changes shapes as killer learns about himself and the world and about relationships as a whole.#He still has a way to go. and more to form as a person.#but he is getting there.#he is ttrying to figure out who he is and who he wants to be. and that is all anyone can want honestly.#why is ccino searching killer out?#ccino wants to check in on everyone. see how everyone is doing. and make sure they are okay.#so ccino makes sure to talk with people.#adn ccino is professional. but he is also a social chameleon and can read the vibe and energy in a conversation very well.#so he very very quickly figures out that killer reacts well to just. having an open conversation. he is okay wiht prodding.#just don't speka for him.#ccino gives him open questions. Not leading to one side or the other. because killer needs to pcik which way to go.#ccino also asks questions which killer can easily answer with a short answer. but killer wants to talk with him#so killer tends to not shorten the conversations he gets.#until he gets the question on his training. the subject he is unsure about. that he shuts down because he doens't have the right words#or answers for those questions.
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A tale of dumbassery, a sailor, and one innocent bi-stander (aka. Eddie Munson)
Eddie was crouched on the curb of the building when one of the back doors to the mall suddenly flung open. He was behind the mall near the dumpsters, so it wasn’t uncommon for people to slam the door with their legs while their hands were full of garbage bags. What was not normal, however, were the tiny shorts on this guy's ass.
There were no shorts that needed to be that short. Though it was the eighties, crop tops, and short shorts on men were a trend. That didn’t mean Eddie had to enjoy it. If anything, he enjoyed it so much that it did a full one-eighty into a bad case of loathing.
But this sailor, in his short blue shorts, maybe one in a million because Eddie's enjoyment was doing a full three-sixty on repeat. He’s pretty sure his eyes were doing that silly animated thing too, where they continuously popped in and out of his skull.
As he kept watching this fine-looking sailor, he noticed the other man struggling to carry three garbage bags in his two hands. His arms were visibly straining from the weight. The man was also purposely stumbling to the dumpster to avoid one of the leaking bags, leaving a trail of melted ice cream behind him. He was a walking disaster just waiting to happen and Eddie found himself slightly more into that than he had previously thought.
What can Eddie say? He has a thing for dumb men and nice asses. And this gorgeous, gorgeous fool in front of him was the epitome of dumbassery.
Eddie was so distracted by this man that his cigarette burned to the nub, and he wasn’t paying attention to the heat slowly beginning to reach his fingers. Not until it was too late did he notice the tiny lit flame against his skin. Some of the ash landed on his pants, hands, and even his favorite ‘Ride the Lightning’ tee.
“Fuck,” he yelps as he hops up and purposely drops the nub under his show to put it out. His right hand, which got burnt, was doing a dramatic jazz hand skit, while his left made a feeble attempt to brush off the ash. He then looks back up to see the sailor, who had been two-thirds of the way to the dumpster before Eddie did his small fire dance, was now looking at him.
From where he stood, Eddie could hear the other chuckling at him. Embarrassment washed over him before it slowly turned to anger when he finally comprehended who he was looking at.
Standing almost ten feet away from him was Steve Harrington, the same Harrington who was a complete douchebag in high school. Now, said douchebag was holding back soft laughter. The asshole even opened his mouth, probably to give Eddie shit, when the bag that had been leaking the entire way to the dumpster finally broke.
Ice cream and trash go everywhere, most landing on Steve's shoes and hairy legs.
Eddie doesn’t hold back the laughter that catches him by surprise, his anger leaving him before he can say anything too stupid. However, he quickly stops when the other boy's gaze falls back on him.
He’s afraid he’ll have to run away from a trash-covered king, but that fear quickly dissolves when he hears Steve's laughter slowly join his.
“I suppose that's what I get for being an asshole.” Steve comments, scrunching his nose in disgust as he steps out of the puddle of sour milk at his feet.
He looks back up, about to say something to Eddie, but the door he exited less than five minutes ago flings open. This time, a disgruntled girl with a slight bob and matching sailor suit emerges.
“Hey, asshole-” She stops mid-sentence, her expression morphing into disgust as she processes the mess surrounding Steve.
Eddie glances back at Steve who is now frantically moving much faster than before. He throws the garbage over the dumpster and quickly begins to pick up what he can, which isn’t much before he runs back to the girl at the door.
“Sorry, I didn’t see the bag was ripped until I was like five feet away from the exit, and I was hoping to get it all mopped up before you noticed, but the bag broke and–” Steve’s words were flying a mile per minute, each hitting his coworker in the face all at once.
Once again, Eddie is surprised by the boy's behavior and so is Robin, whose name tag he had managed to catch when she takes a step back from Steve. Who now reeked of garbage and seemed oblivious to this fact along with what personal space was.
“Ok, ok, I get it, dingus.” Robins's hand moves up in a stop motion. Both she and Eddie watch as Steve’s anxiety train slows down to a halt before it goes too far off the rails.
“We can get a janitor to clean it up or something, but I need you to get back in there before I piss myself. I’m having one of your kids watch the booth while we are away and I don’t think we have enough time to piss and get you cleaned up before they start robbing us clean.” Robin rambles out.
Eddie can’t help but think that the two were perfect for each other because they sure did ramble a lot.
Eddie’s existence is again ignored as the two sailors head back in. Before Steve is completely gone though, he sends a small finger wave Eddie's way.
And at that moment, Eddie decided he was going to loathe that boy's ass forever.
Ahhh I'm slowly getting back into a flow of things and strangely this one shot took me forever to write which I am not used to. (Though I am considering expanding this into Eddie finding Steve and Robin fucked up on the truth serum though I am not sure, I am willing to take opinions though)
#Eddie will proceed to have prophecies of that ass#He will be found drooling over the tiniest though of those shorts#He legitimately tries escaping from those shorts but where ever he turns they are always there#He feels like hes going crazy#He's also convinced that ass if going to come out of his bed and swallow him up like johnny depp in nightmare on elm street#ok sorry that was out of pocket#steddie#stobin#eddie munson#steve harringtion#robin buckley#scoops ahoy#pre season 4 steddie#early stobin#steve is not an asshole in this#but he does tend to fall back in hold habits and tries to apologize#but him and robin could ramble to each other for hours#stranger things#strangerthings#steveharrington#robinbuckley#eddiemunson#steve harrington shorts
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just in case anyone had the idea that himis are foolproof because how can you mess up being long and skinny
well
this is how
#'doorstop ass' is a more common fault i tend to have in my himis#which is where their hq is like...taller? than their fq#but this guy is just. uh. well. not sure what to call this#you've heard of soupy get ready for concave#if he could put his ankles down it'd help the topline a little but his legs are too long for him to do that comfortably#so he's just a conformational nightmare overall#oh well he'll make delicious boudin#himalayan rabbit#rabbits
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minho has 1000% fallen out of his hammock MULTIPLE times. leading to gally, jorge, vince, etc. helping him and thomas build a small hut that they end up sharing.
#nightmares can make him jolt up in his sleep so he tends to fall out easily#at first no one mentions it until he almost gets a concussion#thomas eventually talks to him and is like ‘dude you have bruises from FALLING’#little minho hc bc i rewatched tdc and im wrecked#he deserves to be happy#ari talks#safe haven#tmr minho
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the terror has me itching to fall into another rabbit hole about victorian racism because they absolutely nail the despair james would feel at "not being even English" but I need the details of what the Victorians were thinking about the Brazilians specifically. It's already pretty wild that James ends up embodying the English fear of miscegenation of all things, which right now I can't remember if it's openly addressed when it comes to Francis and Sophia or it's only implied (I am aware about the essays on how the Irish are an inferior race of "white gorillas", I don't believe for a second Sir John wasn't) but the ties to a different colonial empire...they had a caste system too, to add to the mindfuckery.
#like james' mother could have not even been white. that's the level we are at. he doesn't know either.#the terror#antiqua ponders how the terror masterfully uses gothic tropes which were appropriate for the time#european racism is so fascinating to me and victorian racism in particularly because it tends to be my field of study#and also because you read things like wilkie collins being accused of corrupting the public by being a francophile#i found an essay about anti german sentiment propagated by the stereotype of germans loving sausages too much#like sometimes it's fucked up shit like matthew arnold pontificating on the inherent inferiority of the celtic race and how england needs#to conquer them for their own good#and some other time it's room with a view where they go to italy and faint when they see italians#where is that post about lovecraft's nightmares being to be in an elevator with an irishman
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Super heavy vent ahead in the tags
#bird chirps#vent#Talking about political stuff and suicidal ideation#But genuinely I cant anymore with this election. Im fucking terrified#Granted my dad’s a major pessimist and I think he lowkey enjoys others suffering#So his passionate rants about how we have no future and life isnt worth it if Trump wins definitely isnt helping#But holy shit Im actually terrified#Im trying to not crawl into the pit of despair but I really don’t know how life can go on worst case scenario#I cant delay my life four more years minimum for another recession/depression#I cant stay in this house and watch my rights get taken away#Theres just so much shit to be afraid of#And granted I live in a swing state. I think its still a swing state anyway since we tend to vote republican#So the campaigning here gets brutal#But it’s hard to stay positive when it seems like EVERYONE irl is so fucking pro trump#Im just praying theres a silent majority and that isnt the case#But God I cant fucking do this man#Situations where you have little to no control over the outcome are a fucking nightmare#I can vote so at least that’s something. But thats not enough to ease the anxiety#I need the outcome to be GUARENTEED and thats just not gonna happen#So I just sit here as shit gets worse and it’s harder to keep calm#And I dont have a good track record of having Safe Mental Health while in election times#So this just. Really fucking sucks#I hate when I get like this because it feels like such a major step back#And with an event THIS big its hard to push it all away as irrational and a mental health issue#Because my brain goes ‘Well LOGICALLY you WONT be able to go on so this is a correct way to think’#I hate it so fucking much#If Trump wins Ill pick up smoking or something. Fuck it#Deciding on an action like THAT is still less destructive than full on suicide plan#But I just. I cant fucking do this#Can I teleport to 2028 and just pray everythings okay
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Context: this is an info post for a different post I made, you can find it here :3
So if this somehow gets out to people that don't know this blog, hi, we're a system and I (Host) am here to explain what this is.
About six-eight months ago iirc I had the flu and got a fever dream about LC where I was a different person who had been turned into a coilhead and was working with a scrap collecting team for fun. This whole experience of being sick and having nightmares for like two weeks made us split a new alter (March) and a few weeks later we split another alter (Rend) due to an incredibly stressful and traumatizing near-death experience. The two of them bonded and turned the fever dream into a little story they liked to work on together. At first Rend was SUPER delusional about it but he got better <3 so this animatic, drawn originally by him, was supposed to be about how the two reunited (cuz in the story Rend was the captain of March's ship before they both were killed and became monsters) in their little story they were making
The rest of the animatic would show the human (named Xenon) running from Rend before being cut off by March, who would then chase Rend away before he recognized him. Rend, not being able to see still coil-heads wouldn't recognize March yet and would eventually be cornered where Xenon would return, having realized Rend wasn't dangerous and could be a deceased employee like March. And that's where the animatic would've ended :3
In their little story there's other characters, like a lot of other characters, but Rend, March, and Anno are the only ones who have a place in the story as of now. They might put Friend in but honestly I'm not sure how they would cuz Friend is just like An Actual Jester it's not a person that got killed like those three are. OOH and also they put my LC OC, Pace, in too! Hes a bracking <3
#host#I know this probably sounds weird but it's just something they like to do 🤷♂️#at first Rend was really delusional to an unhealthy extent about it but he source separated a bit and now treats the story as like a hobby#:3#the best way I can describe it is having alters of your oc's except instead of the OC being something you consciously made#instead they came from a nightmare tee hee#and trauma ofc like that tends to be the catalyst LOL#also lmk if you want them to make the little story they came up with into likr A Thing#I know they have a lot of it written down in Google docs so we could make#like#an ao3 account or something and post it all in lil updates#if ppl are interested in their writing ofc#personally I'm SHIT at writing but they might be better tee hee#also adding this on at the end but I know that I specifically type like#funny#in a way#but im not a child I'm 21#I was also concerned the shitty art would make people think I was like#14#which is fine but I don't want my friends to be concerned cuz like#I KNOW that feeling of suddenly finding out your friend is like 6 years younger than you in your 20s LOL
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😭💔
#the problem is that I tend to extrapolate things from the beginning.#I have a serious crush. I would date him if he asked. heck I think I'd marry him.#and then we get to the massive#overwhelming ISSUE:#having kids is genuinely my worst nightmare. I'm not exaggerating in any way. being pregnant and having kids is my worst fear.#so because of that I cannot get married and thus I cannot date and thus#I can't allow myself to be in love with this guy.#which then leads to mental anguish bc I sometimes wonder if God isn't doing something here#but in the end I can't have... any of this. because I'm too utterly averse to having children#and that's kind of the end result of any of it#ugh#why did I have to have this crisis (again) over my morning coffee.... alas
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the states dont have crate day how am i supposed to explain what kind of guy wiremu is when u dont understand what it means to be a Crate Day Guy
#its the first saturday of december (first saturday of summer in nz) and u buy a crate of beer#(24x 750ml bottles) and u have from noon until midnight to finish them (2 bottles an hour)#it is a Nightmare of a time bc people obviously get way too drunk and a Lot of people can not drink that much#in general let alone in the time limit#so mostly people will share crates or at least my friends tend to#but like. there are the kind of guys who are always Pumped for crate day and go super hard and i think wiremus like that#hes a very. hes a casual beer drinker in the way a Lot of people in nz are (read: borderline alcoholics)#but hes a bigger guy w a high tolerance so he very rarely gets hammered#wiremu: headcanons.
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I'm pretty sure at this point the person that has appeared the most in my dreams/nightmares (apart from people I actually know/used to know in real life) is Jarvis Johnson. it happens a lot, he'll just randomly show up all the time. like last night he was in a (particularly gruesome and unpleasant) nightmare that I had. didn't make any sense but it was nice to get a break for a second :)
#I like when my brain does this#just. oh yeah this is pretty awful. here have A Guy You Like#it does help a little#and it does kinda make sense that he would show up a lot. I find him very calming#there's also been lots of dreams where I was friends with him. and many where I hug him. it's very weird because besides him this really#doesn't happen a lot with anyone else lol#like I've had maybe three dreams that (characters played by) John Larroquette showed up in. and I spend a stupid amount of time thinking#about him lol#anyway I like Jarvis he's great and I'm glad my brain seems to like him too haha#also. that nightmare last night was one of the more brutal ones (like. dozens of young people/teenagers getting killed by a teacher that I#haven't seen in 15 years and who wasn't even that bad. it was just really rough. so yeah getting like a tiny moment of aww hey what's he#doing here that makes no sense! is always nice :') and it's good because then I tend you remember that part a bit more than the rest.)#*to#unfortunately this makes watching his videos (especially sad boyz) a little weird sometimes. like. hey that's my friend. wait no he's not.#I've just dreamed that over a dozen times it's not actually real (unfortunately)#personal
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The 30 day Tales challenge... in one post or else it would never get done!
Favorite Tales game: Legendia
Favorite Main Male Hero: Yuri and Senel
Favorite Main Female Hero: Kohaku
Favorite Side Male Character: Moses
Favorite Side Female Character: Stella
Favorite Canon Pairing: Senel/Stella + Shing/Kohaku
Favorite Non-Canon Pairing: how official is stahn/leon at this point i wonder
Favorite Opening Song: Destiny
Favorite Location: ??? idfk the entire Legacy??? I'll go with Werites Beacon for simplicity I guess. feels like home
Favorite Mascot: Giet. don't tell me he's not a mascot, I'm not listening. (and if you want to try having that discussion my answer is still the Oresoren so we're not getting far, are we)
Favorite Monster: ??? also dfk, probably something cute except i don't like hurting cute so i guess we're stuck
Favorite Boss Battle: UHHHH listen it hurts to say but Vicious; bc the raw emotion that went into that entire storyline ate me whole
Favorite Villain: since I'm avoiding antagonists here (such as Duke who aren't explicitly villains) and prefer to go full villain, Creed.
Least Liked Character: not opening THAT can of worms!!! :D
Your First Tales Game: boooo boriiiing. Symphonia like the other half of the western population. no fancy answer here
Your Favorite Scene: ??? I mean, there's... a lot I guess??? Stahn pleading with Leon moments before disaster??? Kanata crying that Vicious was okay and came back to them??? Moses saying literally anything ever in any scene ever??? the end of Innocence but when you choose Spada as your soulmate bc I'm a bias little fuck??? anything with Yuri and Flynn being happy together??? the entirety of Legendia???
Funniest Scene: idk but it either had Moses in it, Vicious in it, or it was Spada's "I can't believe you mixed up Frosty the Snowman with the Abominable Snowman"
Saddest Scene: Moses' Character Quest cutscene (if not the whole fucking CQ), moments during disaster with Leon, moments during disaster with Asch
Favorite Quote: a lot of stuff Vicious said ngl. can't think of nor pick one off the top of my head but every time he Gets Serious it's one of those and I fall in love further every single time. but if we wanna be REEEALLY simple? "Yeehaw". thanks, Moses. maybe Yuri has said something cool enough to get on the top list, but I'm not sure anything is trumping "yeehaw", and maybe that's equal to something Vicious said
Favorite Piece of Gameplay Music: Scutum - Decisive Battle. Pour one out for Rebirth having the fucking BEST battle theme ever.
Most Shocking Reveal: ??? I'm... not sure at this point. Giet??? was it Senel??? maybe Mathias and Ruca??? Ratatosk and Emil??? I kind of want to say Ratatosk and Emil because I remember being very impressed with the direction of the plot, in that the main protagonist/player character was actually the villain the whole time that the antagonist was trying to kill the whole time. definitely not a plot direction you usually get in JRPGs. Giet's story still hit like an entire brick building 100 storeys high falling on me though
Favorite One on One Fight: that was actually FUN??? uhhh idk Vicious against Kasque. what did you expect me to say???
Favorite Skit: way too many skits to have even a semblance of an idea. I'm going to assume it was either something related to Yuri and Flynn, Moses, Vicious, Spada or Stahn. that's about the closest I can pinpoint
Favorite Tales Spell: I don't... think I have one...
Favorite Tales Weapon: -bangs fist on desk and gets really obvious really fast- BLOOD SINS, BLOOD SINS, BLOOD SINS. after that the Swordians
Tales World You Want to Live In: honestly Legendia's and Graces' seem the most reasonably normal compared to the rest, but also shiny fingertips and Moses is a pretty solid Legendia
Favorite Animated Tales Series/OVA: (don't say rays don't say rays don't say rays don't say stahn/leon) probably First Strike if only because it focuses on Yuri and Flynn who I love, but Abyss' anime was very solid compared to the other Tales animated series that were just heavily condensed versions (or worse in Eternia's case, not even being relevant to the main story). like, I would not recommend the animated series to anyone prior to playing the game except for Abyss, which is the full major story and I have inarguably rewatched that anime more than I've played the game. I guess in terms of general animated, FS, but in terms of actual consistency to the game it came from and dedication it had in retelling the story faithfully without skipping 80 percent of it, Abyss
Favorite Tales Outfit: RICHARD??? HEEEELLO??? not arc F though that shit is too fruity for me. also Leon has VERY enjoyably bright colors that make him stand out and as a Very Deeply Definitely Not Obsessive Leon Enjoyer, I very much love that. Aegis also has a really nice outfit. Asbel's is pretty but definitely not Richard level of I'm obsessed with this look
Favorite Game Plot: -breaks everything in your room and your neighbor's room for good measure- TURN IT BACK ON NAMCO I'M PAST MY LIMIT SO I'M PROBABLY IN OVERLIMIT (Crestoria. it's that or I'm saying Legendia again. Innocence and Hearts both are really close runner ups tho!!! definitely the most unique in the franchise imo out of the mainline games and sadly confined to "nobody fucking cares about them and never did")
Favorite Game Ending: so that's got... layers. it really depends on the sub topic. I guess in terms of a happy ending, Graces (the Wii version specifically, getting Richard back. don't really care for the ending of arc F and lean more toward disliking it). in terms of a depressing fucking ending that makes me Very Upsetti, Destiny. there is literally nothing happy about Destiny's ending for me. like yeah we saved the world, but at a LOT of cost and it's just depressing. I've wanted to make a post about that anyway, but basically it's a type of ending they don't really make anymore (especially in Tales), and the emotional impact for me was a lot heavier than the other games, with Destiny 2 lingering right behind it. both Destiny games were just DEPRESSING, and no matter how bittersweet Destiny 2's ending was, it's still DEPRESSING. Vesperia at least had a more outright happy ending (that wasn't completely changed by a post game ending arc with a totally different ending) and I finally at that point didn't lose my favorite character to Certain Final Boss Death or Recurring Side Character I Came To Love Dying Unceremoniously and Undeserved. only a couple of top favorites actually came out of their games alive for me by Vesperia in terms of games I know + release timeline (to put it into perspective, by the time of Vesperia in release order (so not the order I played in bc I don't really remember the whole actual order at this point), out of all the games I know, my favorite character death toll was five to three survivors not counting Vesperia. still haven't played Eternia so I'm not counting that one). so I guess like, my answer is a whacky combination of Graces for the Wii, Destiny and Vesperia. maybe if Hearts hadn't killed my mans off then it could've had it all. 😔
#GTF Things#Tales 30 Day Challenge#mainly doing this in case anyone has Same Hat Opinions and wants to talk abt them LOL#for number 22 it was also fun using his new form. normally one on one battles are either#annoying or just a nightmare. or just outright unwinnable by scripted plot (ex Senel and Melanie)#as far as ''canon'' ships go that's also a can on worms i am NOT opening until society can accept that gay ppl actually exist :)#anyway have i properly established my love for legendia now? for crestoria? for moses? for vicious?#i post abt them a lot less bc the amount of content out there for like#vesperia and abyss which i tend to post reblogs of most is WAAAAAY beyond higher#it's kind of like... the less i talk abt it and the less content it has... the more likely i WANT to talk abt it and LOVE it#i could talk to you about moses and spada ALL FUCKING DAY but most ppl haven't played either game or don't care for them#and also i usually stay quiet abt moses bc ONCE THOSE GATES ARE OPEN YOU'RE NOT SHUTTING THEM#moses leon vicious and spada are like... the ones i would love to talk abt nonstop forever#bc they're talked abt a lot less. leon IS popular even in the west but your average tales fan#is not going to know destiny/that it exists or have played destiny or even care to from my experience#i ramble abt what faves i can basically LOL but many of my actual top of the top faves are so obscure that like#i can't find ppl to talk to abt them. yuri is in a very very weird place with my faves#bc my technical favorite in that game is duke but yuri gets senel level position of fave mc#and is also Very Special to me so he's in a weird place as a favorite that#in some ways passes Actual Favorite Duke and in other ways doesn't
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